Let Me Explain

"If a person's bodyweight is at least 20% higher than it should be, he or she is considered obese. If your Body Mass Index (BMI) is between 25 and 29.9 you are considered overweight. If your BMI is 30 or over you are considered obese." - Medical News Today

That is fact. It's not an opinion on the topic, but merely a definition. I don't believe you have to be skinny to be healthy.

This is about my misadventures in finding a FIT and happy place to be.
Showing posts with label Running. Show all posts
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Friday, March 6, 2020

The Little Marathon That Could...

Okay, so I know somebody wants to hear the entire story of my 2020 Little Rock Marathon experience... right? Well, I promise this isn't going to be just another race report. Those are like super boring. Mostly.

Anyway, if I do this right, you'll be all up in your feels by the time you get to the finish line. Kinda like I was. So grab a cup of coffee or a cup of tea, whatever floats your boat, and get comfy. I don't know how long this is going to take me, but I want to tell the whole story.

I think I'm going to do this blog thing monthly rather than weekly. I feel like I can pack more useful information into a single post, plus it takes too much time to write something worth reading every week. I would like to start adding in my meal prep recipes and workouts, along with the fun theme and song.

Also, I'm totally welcome to feedback. So if there is something you would like to know or would like me to cover, please feel free to email me. It's allisoncassatta@gmail.com. If you want to chat about weight loss, exercise, triathlons, and fabulously stupid things like marathon running, I'm game. I pretty much stay attached to my email so I promise you'll get a response.

Now for the fun stuff...

If you've run a marathon or not, I think everyone can agree 26.2 miles on foot is a lot. It's not something anyone would call easy (not a sane person anyway.) Sure, it becomes less challenging the more you do it, but still far from anything easy. That's why I think the perfect theme for this blog post is "What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger."

I will absolutely be the first person to say your race day experience is what your training makes it. If you slack off on your long runs, you'll pay for it come game day. If you don't log the miles, expect it to hurt. I'll also be the first to admit when I "dog it" as my friend Mike McCord would say. I totally dogged it this time around. I went out of 2019 marathon training, straight into Half Ironman training, straight into 2020 marathon training.

The burnout was real and abundant. I didn't get quite enough long runs in. One twenty miler instead of the two on most training  Whatever, I did one and maintained better than a 12:35 pace. I was going to be okay. But then my hip would hurt after thirty minutes on the treadmill and I would swear I was doomed. So I had concerns. Big concerns. I told myself I wouldn't finish, while telling myself a 5:30 finish was totally doable. Insanity. I know. I had this conversation with myself. <insert a winky face here>

Mentally, I was a mess.

This is the starting line on Saturday morning. I, like a lot of my completely insane friends, decided to do the combo (5K and Marathon) because seriously, if you're going to make the trip, get the extra bling. #nojoke

I practiced control with my pacing, ran the whole 3.1 miles with no walking and negative splits. Felt awesome coming across the finish. No pain. Stretched. Walked it off. Sat down for a bit. Boom. My hip started hurting... @#%$!!!

We went to dinner at this AMAZING little cafe called The Root. Took a Lyft there and walked back. Which was hella smart, because walking it off eased the pain. I woke up the next morning with zero aches, and in a pretty damn good place mentally.

I keep telling my friends they need better friends...

While I was trying not to be all up in my head about my race, my poor friend Cheryl was all up in hers about her first Half Marathon. For those who don't know, that's thirteen-point-one miles, and a pretty daunting prospect if you've never done it before. She had concerns too. Big ones. I did my best to give her a good pep talk, promised she would be okay and she would finish. She was more than ready. It's sometimes easier to tell other people the things you should be telling yourself. We can be our own worst enemies.

She finished right around her goal time, said she felt pretty good the entire race, and isn't put off by the idea of doing another one. Go Cheryl!

Running... It can be a little addictive.

So here goes the big part. The part about extraordinary people doing super hard shit despite their challenges. It started from the moment I lined up in my coral and didn't stop until I crossed the finish line. Remember... what doesn't kill you makes you strong.



I found my pacer, and older gentleman with a welcoming smile and a big personality. He was eager to chat with everyone, and meet everyone who would be running (or attempting to run) this race with him. We had two first-timers and I was honestly excited about that. It can be pretty fun helping someone through their first 26.2. He proceeds to tell us that there may be cameras and news following him. He was doing his 512th full marathon... WITH STAGE FOUR PROSTATE CANCER! Whatttttt....????

I stood there, staring at this man who looked perfectly healthy, and I couldn't speak. Like. Maybe people do this all the time. Like you read stories on the internet of people who overcome massive adversity to conquer insane goals, but how often do you get to spend five and a half hours chatting with them and soaking up all that strength? Well, I didn't get that much time either because I couldn't keep up with him. I lost him around mile fifteen. He honestly made it look easy, like he wasn't struggling for a second. Wow. Just wow.

So I was holding a really good and steady pace for a while. At least half the race. I stayed about two minutes ahead of my pace band, like I wanted to. Fuel was on point. Stomach was good. Weather cooperated. Hip did too... until around mile nine.

The pain was sharp. Like a Charlie horse right in the glute or under the hip bone, or over, or in the front of my thigh. It felt like it was everywhere, to be honest. All over my right hip. I hissed and walked for a bit. Then tried to run for a bit. My brain went straight into surrender mode. Like Allison, don't be an idiot, you can't do this. Of course, my heart knew walking it off helped last night and would surely god help today. My heart is the more stubborn of the two vital organs at least ninety percent of the time, and even that little soldier was ready to raise the white flag. My chin started to quiver. I was going to cry. Stupid. Soggy. Losery. Crying. UGH!!!

No. No crying. Walk it off. Walk it off. It didn't even take half a mile and I was back on my intervals (run three minutes, walk one minute.) Life was good again. I slowed my pace just to be careful, but finishing seemed possible again. Then around mile fourteen-ish, the pain came back. AGAIN. Maybe even a little more relentless than before.

I decided then if I had to, I would walk the rest of the race because I'd gone too many miles not to get that ridiculously huge, ridiculously sparkly medal. My stubbornness can be infuriating and it can be life saving. Life is about balance.

So this guy in a Navy 10NM shirt looks back to me and says, "you okay?"

I was like "yeah, I'm good" in my totally defeated voice. Then I asked him if he was okay because he seemed to be limping just a little bit. That question sparked a conversation, that lead to one of my favorite and most memorable race experiences ever.

BJ, Mike, and Me around Mile 22-23             BJ, Me, and Mike at the Finish    
A lot happened in the almost twelve miles to the finish. My hip hurt off and on, but not nearly as bad as it had. Mike's knee was hurting him, making it really hard to run for any length of time. He attempted Little Rock last year and was unable to finish due to his muscles all locking up on him. He was bound and determined to get that giant medal this year. I told him I would stay with him and we would both finish. Because I'll tell you something, when you're alone and things start hurting, marathon running gets at least fifty percent harder mentally.

Mike and I met another gentleman whose name I didn't get. He was seventy-two years old and running his 16th full marathon. Read that one more time. 72 years old. 16th full marathon. Extraordinary, right? I told him I wanted to be like him when I grow up. He was a cool guy, said Little Rock Parks and Recreation sponsors his running group and they run different parks each weekend. I feel like this dude was special and probably has a fun little tribe. He kept losing his stuff. Lost his phone. Mike somehow managed to bend over, pick it up, and stand upright again. Props to that. Mike gave the man his phone back, and he proceeded to tell us how he'd lost his water bottle full of pickle juice. For those that don't know, it helps with muscle cramps. Mike then gave him his last little bottle of pickle juice. We still had like ten miles to go...

Around mile 20-21, we met BJ. Now, BJ had passed us a while back and was running pretty solid, but he hit that wall that most first-timers hit where another 10k feels freaking impossible. Mike, again, asked "are you okay?" BJ shook his head.

We found out that the decision to do the marathon was a spur of the moment thing for BJ. Now, you might say what kind of fool just decides to do a marathon without training? Well, BJ had made a joke about it in front of the wrong little ears, and there we were. He said his son looked up at him and said "I think you can do it, daddy," and that was all he wrote. BJ was a man who ran three miles a day on a treadmill before work and was now doing a full marathon. What the what?!?! 

Just for the record, he's living proof that it can be done, but it's not gonna be easy.

We rounded the corner after the giant uphill at mile 25, with less than a mile to go and a spectator yelling "make those boys move, Allison!" Sorry, that was cute. I giggled a little. I looked back at them and told them both it was all downhill from there. Beautiful thing, that downhill, because god knows there was plenty going up on that course.

We got closer to the finish and this little human comes running out "Daddy! Daddy!" It was BJ's son. Mike told the kid to come run with us, to get on the course. I joked that he could have Daddy's big, sparkly medal.

The kid grabbed his father's hand and we all started running. Fast. Too fast. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Okay, slow down, y'all. BJ's legs went straight and he came to a dead stop. We weren't even a tenth of a mile from the finish. Mike and I both said, "keep moving! Keep moving." If BJ had stopped then, he might not have crossed the finish line. I grabbed his hand and off we went again. 


Mike got his huge medal to hang next to his wife's 2019 medal. 

I got my medal and another #finishingmove (that's a whole story. Adrenaline got the best of me.) 

BJ's son was right. His daddy could do it and the kiddo got to be there for the hardest part of it. 

We all hugged, and I think we all got a little choked up. I met BJ's goofy friends and one of them hugged me and thanked me for sticking with him. I also met his wife and son. 

At the end of the day, we were three strangers selflessly helping each other do something big and all for different reasons. None of this killed us and it definitely made us stronger. For me, it helped my soul (not sole.) My give-up was strong that day and those dudes totally pulled me out of my head. If they needed my help or not, I needed theirs, and that was completely okay. When asked what the most rewarding thing about being part of the running community is, I think the story of my 2020 Little Rock marathon sums it up perfectly. 

Friday, February 28, 2020

The Warrior

I feel like this is one of those blogs that needs something more than words and pictures. I mean, some random fat chick talking about her food/body struggles every week can get pretty boring. So I think I need to jazz things up with a theme, like a weekly mind/body positive theme thing. I think I like that. I'm a pretty creative person. This could get fun.

This week, I wanna celebrate our INNER WARRIOR. Yes, all of us have one. It's that thing inside us that makes us get out of bed when it's gross outside, the thing that gets us going when the going gets tough. Your inner warrior is the badass inside you that makes you keep pushing when all you wanna do is give up.

Truth? Marathon training isn't all fun and games. Don't get me wrong, it can be loads of fun under the right circumstances (and minus total burn-out) This round has been the absolute most challenging--mentally and physically--thing I've done recently. Yes, including training for and completing the half Ironman in Augusta last year. The burn-out has gotten super intense. Things hurt that weren't supposed to hurt. Even the short runs became a challenge. I've cried. I've gotten pissed off. I considered dropping down to the half because things just weren't coming together the way I needed them to. I even completely pulled away from social media. I stopped sharing my workouts to Strava because I wasn't proud of anything I was doing. Which is really stupid if you think about it. The sheer will to keep going is enough to be proud of, but I think you get the point. It's been a freakin' struggle.



With the Little Rock Marathon coming up this weekend, the song of the week HAS to be 80s, and I'm gonna be a whole lot extra and pick "The Warrior." If you've ever heard/seen me cross a finish line, you would understand this. Beyond that, I think it takes tapping into that warrior spirit to conquer these huge goals and finish things that are hard. A warrior heart can conquer an antagonistic brain every time!

Since the big race is fast approaching and I didn't stumble upon this IF thing until it was too late, I've decided not to fast Saturday or Sunday. I'm doing the Totally Awesome challenge again this year (the 5k Saturday and the Marathon Sunday.) Because who goes to Little Rock and doesn't race both days? Pft.

I also decided to start reporting the changes in my body measurements here as well, because isn't that what we all really wanna see? Does IF work? How well does it work? And can I maintain my present level of insanity with it?

After this past weekend, I've come to the conclusion it is entirely possible to do pretty strenuous activities fasted, but I feel like adding in the BCAAs was important. Fatigue wasn't nearly as bad Sunday as it was Saturday, which is kinda backwards if you think about it. After 10 miles in the woods, my legs should've been boat anchors, but they weren't. When I get back from Little Rock, I plan to play around with some things as far as fueling goes. One thing for sure, I'm going to keep using the BCAAs during my workouts.

WEEK ONE STATISTICS:
  • Weight: -2lb
  • BMI: -.10
  • Hips: No previous measurement
  • Waist: No previous measurement
  • Bust: No previous measurement

DAY FIVE - Sunday 2/23/20:

I didn't take any pictures today, so there's really nothing fun to share here. Unless you guys want to see a screenshot from Training Peaks... Yeah, I know. No one wants to see that.

This morning has been different than the previous mornings. I wasn't starving when I got out of bed. It wasn't like I ate a ton the night before. I threw a couple of Morningstar Spicy Black Bean burgers in the air fryer for me and the hubby for dinner. I think I ate a handful of White Cheddar Cheetos with it, but that was it. I honestly don't think I heard the first growl until around 8:30 (and I woke up around 4AM. Don't ask. It's stupid to be awake that early when you don't have to be.)

Nothing much to report, other than all my workouts were done fasted. I knew I would be close to home for my run, and in my garage for the rest. That felt safe. I didn't start feeling depleted until the end of the TABATA ride (which significantly kicks my ass on a good day.)

Today's workout:  (all fasted with 1.5 servings of BodyTech Ultimate BCAA)
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 3 Mile Run
  • 35 Minute TABATA Ride

DAY SIX - Monday 2/24/20:

My body is definitely getting used to this madness. I haven't been starving in the mornings, and those early evenings spent watching TV with my husband doesn't include snacking anymore, which I'm not missing too badly today. Though, that bag of white cheddar Cheetos is calling my name. Seriously, if you haven't tried those things, you're missing out. I can't even eat the orange ones anymore.

Today's workout:
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 20 Minute Stair Stepper Intervals

DAY SEVEN - Tuesday 2/25/20:


So this is totally cool. It's been exactly one week since I started this fasting experiment. It all began on a taco Tuesday. And what is today? Oh, yeah! #tacosarelife

Morning seem to be getting a lot easier. At least today they are. My body doesn't seem to be demanding food as soon as my eyes open. So that's a win. Pretty proud of my food choices during the day.

My husband made the BEST shrimp tacos and mango salsa for dinner. It was delicious and I felt completely satisfied... until like an hour later. It took a lot of will power to resist the urge to munch. If only I'd had that willpower when it came to working out today...

Today's workout:
  • I'm a total slacker. Don't judge me.

DAY EIGHT - Wednesday 2/26/20:

I think work from home days are especially hard because all the things I want to eat are right outside the office door, and I know they're there. Like those stupid White Cheddar Cheetos. Seriously, never ever ever buy them. Once you start, you can't stop.

We're stocking up on the carbs and protein in preparation for race weekend. Hubby cooked steak and baked potatoes tonight. It was incredibly filling. I had a handful of vanilla cupcake goldfish right before the fasting window started again. What? I wanted something sweet. #dontjudgeme

Today's workout: 

DAY NINE - Thursday 2/27/20:

Oh. My. God. I'm sooooo hungry. This morning was bad again. I counted down minutes and the clock wasn't going anywhere. My stomach rumbled sooooooooo loudly. Ugh.

I got so mentally invested in my work project that didn't eat until around 10:20. Obviously, my tummy quieted down, but I couldn't tell you when. Probably when I stopped thinking about it. That's the trick, you know?

Maybe I'm losing my mind, but I feel like I'm already seeing changes in my body composition. Keep in mind, I've been doing a lot of HIIT, TABATA, and core work since January 1, but I still feel like fasting is making a positive impact on my weight.

Today's workout: 
  • Rest

DAY TEN - Friday 2/28/20:

So far, so good. Still fasting. I did a little carb loading last night with pizza from Pyros. It was fabulous. Woke up still feeling pretty good. I'm going to break the fast tonight so I can properly fuel for Saturday and Sunday, but I plan on going back to this diet on Monday! I really like how I feel and the results I'm seeing.

I wanted to get this up before hitting the road to head to Little Rock. Kinda like having all my work wrapped up before heading on vacation. I don't like to leaving things unfinished. If all goes well, I'll have a fun story to tell about my 4th marathon! Wish me luck!

Sunday, February 23, 2020

Long Time, No See...

Wow, it's been a hot minute, hasn't it? Last time I talked to you all, I was going into training for my second full marathon. A lot has happened since then. Not only did I finish that bad boy, I finished a third and began training for my fourth. #oneanddonemyass #theytoldmeso

I also became a triathlete and finished my first half Ironman. (Augusta 70.3 is a story for another day.) Crazy stuff though, right? It's been a wild, fabulously torturous adventure. So much fun, in fact, that I've completely burned myself out. Yeah... totally. I had planned on doing my first 50k after Little Rock this year, but I decided against it because my heart just isn't in. I was training hard and everything was going great, then I got a lower respiratory infection that put me out for two weeks and messed up my long runs. I got discouraged and sorta gave up (still trained, but meh.) I'll pay for it March 1st. But that's not why we're here.

During all that hardcore endurance training, I STAYED hungry. Like all the time. See food. Eat food. And because of the burn-out and the fact I was still doing something, I gave myself license to eat what the hell I wanted to. This is a trap a lot of people fall into. You ran fifteen miles, eat an effing cupcake.

Can I just say Frost Bake Shop makes the best cupcakes in the 901. Don't believe me? Try them.

I digress. The point was I completely tanked my weight loss. Well, maybe not completely. I did manage to stay under two hundred pounds, but I'm getting to a place I don't like and it's ruining my run fun.

BodyFast App
As a subscriber to like every major fitness/running/healthy food blog/app/whatever, I get daily emails with catchy headlines about eat this and don't eat that, or do this workouts to boost your (insert whatever goal.) One came through a few weeks ago about intermittent fasting. It totally caught my eye, so I read it.

My brain very literally said to me, "but wait, Allison, you do all that endurancey crap. How can you fast?" So again, I took to Google. What I found was there are people in this wild universe who do IF and endurance running. A lot of super fit, super lean, long time endurance athletes whose bodies are consistently trained to do all this stuff. They weren't 40+ plus women with an excessive BMI and mad hankering for all the sweet things. Totally not applicable to me.

I'm piece-milling all the things I've found from the different sites and what I know about running and fueling and dieting, or at the very least what I think I know. I'm not certified in anything related to this blog. I'm an IT nerd. I sit at a desk all day and stare at screens. Though, in my defense, I have a standing desk and a balance ball chair.

So... consider this a science experiment, a diary of trial and error, with me being a willing guinea pig. I plan to share what has worked as far as fueling and what hasn't, all the emotions and how I feel physically during this madness and of course any positive and/or negative changes. Also, you guys are going to help me stay accountable. I plan to be very real with y'all, so that means I have to be very real with myself, and y'all know how hard that mess can be. I hope everyone finds this content helpful... or at the very least, entertaining to read.


THE PLAN:

"The concept is fairly simple: the 16:8 diet is where you eat for about eight hours of the day and then ‘fast’ for the rest of the day." source: Women's Health Magazine

"Suggested benefits of the 16:8 plan include weight loss and fat loss, as well as the prevention of type 2 diabetes and other obesity-associated conditions." source: Medical News Today

According to Gweneth Paltrow's Netflix show, Goop Lab, fasting also helps slow biological aging as well as increasing energy. Just Google it. The internet has a wealth of information about 16:8 Fasting.

Since I have a problem restricting what I eat, I'm not changing my diet. As it stands now, I typically avoid sugary things at least 6 days a week. I use Monk Fruit to sweeten my coffee. I've been breaking my fast with carbs and protein. One of my go-tos is Ezekiel Bread toast and nut butter. I'm eyeing a jar of Pistachio Butter I really wanna try. Friday is typically eat whatever day because Saturday (and likely Sunday) will always consist of a long/longish run. I think I mostly snack and eat smart, so we're going to try fasting and exercise before going too crazy.


DAY ONE - Wednesday 2/19/20:


My husband cooked this!!!
What, you didn't think you'd get through this without some food pics, did you? To the right is the last meal before starting the fast. My husband made homemade tomatillo salsa, pork carnitas tacos, and Mexican street corn. He keeps one-upping his taco Tuesdays. I'm not complaining. It was delicious and left me completely satisfied.

The morning after making this insane decision wasn't horrible. I was as hungry as I expected to be but my inner cheerleader was all "go team go! You can do it!" I was in a happy place with this decision despite my loudly growling stomach. Truth? The growling has been my body's way of saying good morning since I started doing all the physical activity back in 2015. Nothing new or shocking here.

The growling came in waves. I drank water and sugar/creamer free (zero calorie) coffee all morning and avoided people just in case my hangry came out. I broke the fast with Ezekiel Bread toast and peanut butter. Had a salad for lunch about an hour later. I never felt like I was completely satisfied though.

I might have cried a little when my Apple Watch notified me that my eating window was coming to an end.We all have things that move us to tears. Mine happens to be food and heart-jerking dramas with great character arcs... don't judge me. The hungrier I am, the more I fall for broken, fictional bad boys.

Today's workout: 
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 20 Min Stair Climber Intervals
  • 4 Mile Run (BCAA)

DAY TWO - Thursday 2/20/20:

Today was a whole different ball game. I was hungry when I woke up. My stomach was growling and didn't stop growling until I put something in it. I think she's getting an attitude. Gonna have to knock her down a peg or two.

I didn't get to break my fast with peanut butter toast today, because I've been in and out of meetings, but I still grabbed something with Protein. I read somewhere that your body will cannibalize the muscles without protein or something. So I figured this was a good choice... considering my boss fed us pizza today.

I pretty much stayed hungry and a little cranky all day. My husband made homemade Shrimp Scampi and garlic bread for dinner. I was a decent sized plate, and I was hungry thirty minutes after eating. I stayed hungry all night, even started feeling pretty bad. My stomach hated me. Since I started endurance training, whenever I get super hungry, I start feeling nauseous. That hasn't happened in a while, but it happened today. Ugh. Why am I doing this?

Today's workout: 
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 20 Min Stair Climber Intervals
  • 45 minute Cycle TABATA

DAY THREE - Friday 2/21/20:


I can't lie. Today, I was counting down the minutes until I could eat again. It was really hard not to cave today. I had one of those "how bad can one fun-sized Snicker ruin my fast?" You'd be proud. I didn't eat one. In fact, when it came time for my fasting window to end, I was good and had the little snack you see to your right. Colby Jack cheese cubes, coconut walnuts, and honeycrisp apples. Sounds like a ton of food, but it wasn't. Each side of the container is only a half a cup, and it was completely satisfying. Thank gawds, because on my way to lunch I was rear-ended and had to wait another hour and a half or so to even eat a real meal.

I carb loaded and proteined up for my weekend. My husband was craving Central BBQ, and to be honest, as soon as he mentioned it, I started craving it too. I didn't pig out, but was satisfied when my eating window close.

Today's workout: 
  • Rest Day


DAY FOUR - Saturday 2/22/20:

This morning, the growling didn't seem so bad. I wasn't horribly hungry upon waking. I didn't have the guts to start exercising fasted because I planned on going to the woods. Alone. That seemed dangerous to me. I did do my DailyBurn 365 fasted, and it was challenging, but that day's trainer has always been a tough one.


I had two slices of Ezekiel Bread toast and peanut butter (versus the one I typically have) and headed out to Herb Parsons Lake for a run in the woods. These lone adventures have been good for my head, and I think my self confidence. These particular trails are one of the more challenging for me. The pine cones make the floor slick, and with all the rain we've had, the trails were a mess. I focused more on not breaking my neck than trying to go fast, and eventually I made it out of the woods alive. It was a really great morning.


Today's workout: 
  • DailyBurn 365
    (BCAA post workout)
  • 10 Mile Trail Run
    (Peanut Butter Toast pre-run. Hammer Heed during workout. Chocolate Milk post workout)



Monday, August 14, 2017

Marathon Training - Week 8 Wrap Up

Aug 6th-Aug 12th ~ 19.8 Miles

Day 51 ~ Recovery Miles, 22 Mile Cycle
Day 52 ~ Rest
Day 53 ~ 50min Bootcamp, Therapy Run
Day 54 ~ Painful Run
Day 55 ~ BENCHED (11 Min HIIT)
Day 56 ~ Rest (Or visit a chiropractor)
Day 57 ~ Long Run (10 miles)


Not every chapter of our lives will be a good one. Some days we'll see sunshine and rainbows for as far and wide as the eye can see. Some days, no matter how hard we search, we can't see past the grey skies. That was pretty much my week. And I just realized that my post last week started out much the same way. I guess it's safe to say I'm in a funk. 

It's no coincidence that you don't see a bunch of pictures of me drenched with sweat and smiling from ear to ear. I just didn't have it in me this week. I wanted to put on my big toothy grin and get through the pictures, simply because it seems to be more inspiring when people see you having fun. But that's not real. Don't mistakenly think I'm saying running isn't fun. It is. Besides my husband, it's probably one of the best things that's happened to me. It's just hard to explain and I'm trying hard not to sugarcoat anything. Not even the mental aspect of this journey.  My first promise to myself was to do this blog for me. So when I go back and relive this journey--for whatever reason I need to--I'll have an accurate account of everything. So in the spirit of being real, this week sucked for me, both mentally and physically.

So... about that chiropractor. 

My therapy run on Tuesday did the exact opposite of what it was supposed to do. I was supposed to hit the pavement and clear my head after I let my emotional state keep me locked in the house Monday evening. As soon as I started running I knew it wasn't going to be good. By the time I got to the 1.5 mile mark, my entire left leg hurt. I'm talking from the hip to the bottom of my foot. Something wasn't right. I'd hurt myself. I wasn't going to be able to do the full marathon. I'd screwed up. I'd over-trained. I didn't do something right. I thought I was doing everything right. What. The. F$%@!?!?!

By the time I got back to the house, all I wanted to do was crawl in bed and cry.

I soaked and iced and wore compression, and I knew that Wednesday night I could run with the beginner ladies and go super, super easy, and those ladies always cheer me up. I needed all of the above, but I swore if I felt the least little bit of pain I would stop. So I went out Wednesday evening and everything felt okay enough. I didn't run hard. I finished 3.25 miles and life was good. 

Come Thursday my left leg hurt all over, just walking wasn't comfortable, not to mention the popping that has been coming and going for awhile was LOUD. I was scared again. Scared enough I desperately started searching for an orthopedic doctor. Every time I hit the wall of receptionists and found myself trapped at another road block, I nearly lost it. I was on the verge of panicking while my dreams of success where slipping out of my hands. (Yes, I really am this dramatic.)

Of course, like most people in the modern world of too much information sharing, I took to Facebook looking for recommendations from other runners. Very specifically, I needed a doctor who I could get a damn appointment with and someone who wasn't going to tell me I couldn't workout or run, because neither of those were an option. My friends suggested this chiropractor in Lakeland, TN--Dr. Aaron, they called him. Or Dr. Wonderful according to my friend's kid. Admittedly, when I left his office on Friday, I agreed with her. I can't remember everything he said, but I know he said I have some IT band issues and some inflammation of my Anterior Tibialis. All I know is he was saying all these Latin words while bringing the pain down on my leg. My husband paid attention to the words. I drooled all over the chair.

At the end of my session with Dr. Wonderful, I was cleared to run my ten miles on Saturday, with the caveat that if starts to hurt, pull back. I honest to God listened. I took it super easy the first three miles. When I was sufficiently warmed up, I picked up the pace for the next few miles. The hills in Germantown aren't friendly. We fought. I'll say I won more than I lost. At mile 9 I was feeling phenomenal. The only thing that would've made the run better was less humidity. And I felt every bit of that 100% humidity between mile 9 and mile 10, in the depths of the Greenway's lush green jungle like atmosphere--breathing was almost impossible, but at the end of the day, I enjoyed every single mile.

Next week, we'll see what the orthopedic doctor says about my leg...

"A champion is not made when he succeeds; a champion is made when you look back at the seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months, he has spent preparing." ~ Eliud Kipchoge

Monday, July 31, 2017

Marathon Training - Week 6 Wrap Up


July 23rd-29th ~ 17.1 Miles

Day 37 ~ Rest
Day 38 ~ Women Run/Walk Memphis coaching! 1.6 miles
Day 39 ~ 50min Bootcamp
Day 40 ~ HIIT, Base Miles, 2.4 extra "run buddy" miles (I'll explain this later.)
Day 41 ~ HIIT, Base Miles (dreadmill), Dance
Day 42 ~ HIIT, Rest (Carb up, be silly, chill)
Day 43 ~ HIIT, Long Run (8 miles), Swim

So, I've re-written this post like three times already. I was going to document my entire week and all my thoughts and feelings, but that's boring. I mean, who wants to read the same ol', same ol' week after week? The daily is on Instagram anyway. No sense in rehashing old news, right? Instead, I think I want to share with you guys a little gem of a documentary I found on Netflix this week. It's called From Fat to Finish Line (you can click on the title to see the IMDB listing.)

"The journey of 12 people who share the common bond of losing 100 pounds on average and then embarking on one of the biggest challenges of their lives - the 200 mile mega distance Ragnar Relay Race."

I found this movie because Thursday morning I couldn't make myself get out of bed. The alarm went off at 4am, and I just couldn't do it. The cat kept nuzzling my cheek and purring in my ear, and I just couldn't bring myself to leave the bed. But all wasn't lost. I planned to go to dance class at Germantown Athletic Club that evening, so I told myself I'd get the miles done on the treadmill. I hate the treadmill. Hate. It. So I needed a movie or something on my iPad to keep me occupied for about forty-five minutes while I ran those four miserable miles, otherwise I knew I wouldn't finish. I strolled over to the "available for download" section and went shopping. This is the one I picked... a movie about running, to watch while I was running. Obsessed much?

Immediately, I related to every single person in this documentary. They talked about lifelong weight struggles, one in particular who lost and gained and lost and gained. I know that struggle all too well. Then the woman who didn't have the confidence, the one who felt like she looked ridiculous. I related to the one who got in her own head and convinced herself she couldn't do it. I related to the sick feeling. Every bit of it, even the part where their team-mates stayed by them to pull them through bad runs, and especially the part where they all became a family.

I found a hell of a lot of inspiration in this movie, and it came at a time when I was honest to gods, no kidding, wondering what I was thinking when I signed up to do the marathon. Sure, I make jokes that it's going to kill me, but by Wednesday, I honestly believed I wasn't going to make it all the way to 26.2 miles.

Those four treadmill miles flew by and I felt absolutely amazing. I topped the day off with sixty minutes of dance fusion--which has always been my favorite part of the gym.

By the end of the week, most of my confidence in my ability to see this journey through to the end was coming back. I'll give partial thanks to the people who shared their stories through the documentary, but I would be remiss if I didn't mention my local running community. I mean... they don't exactly let you give up on yourself. And how can you not love people who will get out at 6am on a Saturday morning to sit on the side of the road and wait to hand you water?

Moral of the story, find inspiration however you have to find it. It's okay to give up for a second, even a minute or a day, but don't give up for good. Fall off the horse, but do your best to get right back on it. I've done a lot of giving up, but like one of the women in the movie said, the difference this time was she made a lifestyle change BECAUSE she found running and fell in love.

Friday, July 21, 2017

Marathon Training - Week 4 Wrap Up

July 9th-15th ~ 17.3 Miles

Day 23 ~ Recovery miles
Day 24 ~ 20 min HIIT (WRWM Coaching)
Day 25 ~ Boot Camp
Day 26 ~ Base Miles, 20 min HIIT
Day 27 ~ Base Miles, 30 min HIIT
Day 28 ~ Rest Day
Day 29 ~ Long Run



Still didn't go to dance class Thursday or lift weights on Wednesday night. I've been totally slacking at that. Not because I've wanted to. Adjusting to waking up around 4am to go run has been a challenge. Usually by the end of the work day, I'm beat and I just want to go home and veg out. Week 5, gets worse. I was on vacation... hahaha.

I had one comical day when nothing came together. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong. Well, almost everything. I didn't hurt myself, but this LOUD bug whose nap I ruined nearly gave me a heart attack, but I couldn't check my heart rate because my watched wasn't fully seated on the charger and was dead when I woke up. That would've been day 26. The picture says it all, right? If everything's going wrong, don't panic. Make the best of it.

Women's Run Walk Memphis started up again. This is my second year as a beginner runner coach. I toyed with the idea of coaching the intermediate group--which is comprised of women who've been running and can hold about a 12 minute or better pace. That would've been a good group for me to coach, but the beginner group is where my heart is. I started there two years ago, at least sixty pounds heavier, and truly having no desire to be a runner, and here I am. I NEED to pass that on to the women who showed up exactly like I did because running has probably been one of the most rewarding and empowering things I've done for myself.

Day twenty-nine I was supposed to run with Breakaway Running (only the most awesome running store in Memphis. It's so much more than a running store) but I had to knock my miles out early because my best friend in the whole entire world was getting married at 2pm and I had a two hour drive to get to her!

As a side note, I drank all the coffee but didn't get a chance to read much of the book.

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Marathon Training - Week 3 Wrap Up

Day 16 ~ Cross Training (Spent swimming Spring River. Swimming against the currents was an awesome all over workout.)
Day 17 ~ 3.1 miles (Stars and Stripes 5k)
Day 18 ~ Rest
Day 19 ~ 4 miles
Day 20 ~ 4 miles
Day 21 ~ Rest
Day 22 ~ 10 miles

(Training schedule thanks to Breakaway Running.)

HUMIDITY that, kiddos, is the word of the week. It's been above 90% all week, and if you live in the south you probably know that feels like breathing through a sweaty sock. It's gross. Point blank. <-- ha ha! Wednesday morning it was as bad as 96%. Storms coming through the area have also been messing with everyone's sinuses, so if you can breathe at all right now, consider yourself lucky.

That's not to say everything about the week sucked. Running before the sun even comes up as been nice. It's been a great way to get the happy juices flowing in my brain before going to work. It's been a great way to wake up. Plus, beating the summer heat has been pretty cool too. The neighborhood around my house has some great hills so there's plenty challenge.

WORST PART ABOUT THIS WEEK: Besides the humidity... I didn't get any of my cross training in, save for the swimming on Sunday. The gym was closed Tuesday for 4th of July, so no bootcamp, and that pretty much set the tone for the entire week. I even skipped my beloved dance class. I skipped Seven every single day and there's really no excuse for that. It's literally less than ten minutes of core exercises that I can do in my freaking pajamas. Pajamas on the couch just sounded so much better. I'm holding myself accountable right now. Tomorrow, when I finish my three gentle recovery miles, I'll come home and do the not-so-intense HIIT training. Scouts honor...

BEST PART ABOUT THIS WEEK: Saturday's long run with Daniella. She's always so much fun to be around. She has a light about her, and an incredibly fun personality. I hadn't put that many miles down in a long time, and I felt it the second loop around Midtown. I wasn't properly fueled or hydrated really, but I wasn't racing. The extra miles were just a bonus. I had a great time. It was an awesome way to end the week. Oh! And churros! I love the night before a long run because carbs!

My week of training ended with me standing at the end of my street cheering on runners as they came upon the third mile of the Hope 5k. It' always cool when neighborhood residents come out to cheer runners, even if they're standing out there with coffee in their hands and fuzzy slippers on their feet. I was still drenched from my ten mile run, but I made it home in time to get my booty out there. I had my coffee and my Oofos. Life was good.


Friday, July 7, 2017

I AM BACK!


I know this blog didn't get going well the first time around, and that's totally my fault. I let the petty grumblings of someone I considered a friend and my own insecurities stop me from doing this, from documenting the work and EPIC FUN to be had when one decides to become a runner, but I'm here now to fix that and hopefully encourage someone else to make the brave decision to do something good for their body and soul. 

"Running is not, as it so often seems, only about what you did in your last race or about how many miles you ran last week. It is, in a much more important way, about community, about appreciating all the miles run by other runners, too." - Richard O'Brien

Community is truly at the heart of Memphis Running. I know that probably sounds strange and ten years ago, when I was living in a tiny Mississippi town and walking a four mile asphalt path alone every evening, I never would've thought that anything related to fitness could be so fun and rewarding. I learned this very quickly when I joined Women Run Walk Memphis in 2015 as a beginner runner. 

I'm reminded of that when I go to the fridge to check out my Breakaway Running (a local shop that is so incredibly supportive of the community) calendar and strap my shoes on for my scheduled miles. I'm reminded of that when a friend on Facebook says "going out for five miles, who wants to join me?" or I get a text that says, "can we run tonight?" I'm reminded of that when I'm struggling to get up that last hill and a stranger pats me on the shoulder, tells me "you've got this," and chases my ass all the way to the finish line. Exercising, jogging... those are chores we do to keep us healthy. Running is a way of life. Running is community. And I can't even believe I'm saying this because three years ago I would've rather had all my teeth pulled... but running is fun.

My new adventure in running is to complete the St. Jude Full Marathon. (Click on the picture to your right to donate. Pretty please!) I've never done a full marathon before and frankly, I'm a little freaked out, but I'm going to trust the process and follow the training plan. I'm going to listen to my coach, and I'll remember the advice of a friend... not a single mile you run will be half as hard as what those kids have to go through. Gah. I got chills just thinking about that. So here's to a new goal and a new start (though I'm already 21 days into the training.)

I would like to leave you all with this video, care of Rob Hunter and the Memphis Runners Track Club. I'll admit I was moved to tears when the Women Run Walk and MRTC Kids came up. I volunteer for both those programs every year, and this video made me super stinking proud of the work we do. This video made me fall in love with running all over again!