Let Me Explain

"If a person's bodyweight is at least 20% higher than it should be, he or she is considered obese. If your Body Mass Index (BMI) is between 25 and 29.9 you are considered overweight. If your BMI is 30 or over you are considered obese." - Medical News Today

That is fact. It's not an opinion on the topic, but merely a definition. I don't believe you have to be skinny to be healthy.

This is about my misadventures in finding a FIT and happy place to be.

Friday, March 6, 2020

The Little Marathon That Could...

Okay, so I know somebody wants to hear the entire story of my 2020 Little Rock Marathon experience... right? Well, I promise this isn't going to be just another race report. Those are like super boring. Mostly.

Anyway, if I do this right, you'll be all up in your feels by the time you get to the finish line. Kinda like I was. So grab a cup of coffee or a cup of tea, whatever floats your boat, and get comfy. I don't know how long this is going to take me, but I want to tell the whole story.

I think I'm going to do this blog thing monthly rather than weekly. I feel like I can pack more useful information into a single post, plus it takes too much time to write something worth reading every week. I would like to start adding in my meal prep recipes and workouts, along with the fun theme and song.

Also, I'm totally welcome to feedback. So if there is something you would like to know or would like me to cover, please feel free to email me. It's allisoncassatta@gmail.com. If you want to chat about weight loss, exercise, triathlons, and fabulously stupid things like marathon running, I'm game. I pretty much stay attached to my email so I promise you'll get a response.

Now for the fun stuff...

If you've run a marathon or not, I think everyone can agree 26.2 miles on foot is a lot. It's not something anyone would call easy (not a sane person anyway.) Sure, it becomes less challenging the more you do it, but still far from anything easy. That's why I think the perfect theme for this blog post is "What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger."

I will absolutely be the first person to say your race day experience is what your training makes it. If you slack off on your long runs, you'll pay for it come game day. If you don't log the miles, expect it to hurt. I'll also be the first to admit when I "dog it" as my friend Mike McCord would say. I totally dogged it this time around. I went out of 2019 marathon training, straight into Half Ironman training, straight into 2020 marathon training.

The burnout was real and abundant. I didn't get quite enough long runs in. One twenty miler instead of the two on most training  Whatever, I did one and maintained better than a 12:35 pace. I was going to be okay. But then my hip would hurt after thirty minutes on the treadmill and I would swear I was doomed. So I had concerns. Big concerns. I told myself I wouldn't finish, while telling myself a 5:30 finish was totally doable. Insanity. I know. I had this conversation with myself. <insert a winky face here>

Mentally, I was a mess.

This is the starting line on Saturday morning. I, like a lot of my completely insane friends, decided to do the combo (5K and Marathon) because seriously, if you're going to make the trip, get the extra bling. #nojoke

I practiced control with my pacing, ran the whole 3.1 miles with no walking and negative splits. Felt awesome coming across the finish. No pain. Stretched. Walked it off. Sat down for a bit. Boom. My hip started hurting... @#%$!!!

We went to dinner at this AMAZING little cafe called The Root. Took a Lyft there and walked back. Which was hella smart, because walking it off eased the pain. I woke up the next morning with zero aches, and in a pretty damn good place mentally.

I keep telling my friends they need better friends...

While I was trying not to be all up in my head about my race, my poor friend Cheryl was all up in hers about her first Half Marathon. For those who don't know, that's thirteen-point-one miles, and a pretty daunting prospect if you've never done it before. She had concerns too. Big ones. I did my best to give her a good pep talk, promised she would be okay and she would finish. She was more than ready. It's sometimes easier to tell other people the things you should be telling yourself. We can be our own worst enemies.

She finished right around her goal time, said she felt pretty good the entire race, and isn't put off by the idea of doing another one. Go Cheryl!

Running... It can be a little addictive.

So here goes the big part. The part about extraordinary people doing super hard shit despite their challenges. It started from the moment I lined up in my coral and didn't stop until I crossed the finish line. Remember... what doesn't kill you makes you strong.



I found my pacer, and older gentleman with a welcoming smile and a big personality. He was eager to chat with everyone, and meet everyone who would be running (or attempting to run) this race with him. We had two first-timers and I was honestly excited about that. It can be pretty fun helping someone through their first 26.2. He proceeds to tell us that there may be cameras and news following him. He was doing his 512th full marathon... WITH STAGE FOUR PROSTATE CANCER! Whatttttt....????

I stood there, staring at this man who looked perfectly healthy, and I couldn't speak. Like. Maybe people do this all the time. Like you read stories on the internet of people who overcome massive adversity to conquer insane goals, but how often do you get to spend five and a half hours chatting with them and soaking up all that strength? Well, I didn't get that much time either because I couldn't keep up with him. I lost him around mile fifteen. He honestly made it look easy, like he wasn't struggling for a second. Wow. Just wow.

So I was holding a really good and steady pace for a while. At least half the race. I stayed about two minutes ahead of my pace band, like I wanted to. Fuel was on point. Stomach was good. Weather cooperated. Hip did too... until around mile nine.

The pain was sharp. Like a Charlie horse right in the glute or under the hip bone, or over, or in the front of my thigh. It felt like it was everywhere, to be honest. All over my right hip. I hissed and walked for a bit. Then tried to run for a bit. My brain went straight into surrender mode. Like Allison, don't be an idiot, you can't do this. Of course, my heart knew walking it off helped last night and would surely god help today. My heart is the more stubborn of the two vital organs at least ninety percent of the time, and even that little soldier was ready to raise the white flag. My chin started to quiver. I was going to cry. Stupid. Soggy. Losery. Crying. UGH!!!

No. No crying. Walk it off. Walk it off. It didn't even take half a mile and I was back on my intervals (run three minutes, walk one minute.) Life was good again. I slowed my pace just to be careful, but finishing seemed possible again. Then around mile fourteen-ish, the pain came back. AGAIN. Maybe even a little more relentless than before.

I decided then if I had to, I would walk the rest of the race because I'd gone too many miles not to get that ridiculously huge, ridiculously sparkly medal. My stubbornness can be infuriating and it can be life saving. Life is about balance.

So this guy in a Navy 10NM shirt looks back to me and says, "you okay?"

I was like "yeah, I'm good" in my totally defeated voice. Then I asked him if he was okay because he seemed to be limping just a little bit. That question sparked a conversation, that lead to one of my favorite and most memorable race experiences ever.

BJ, Mike, and Me around Mile 22-23             BJ, Me, and Mike at the Finish    
A lot happened in the almost twelve miles to the finish. My hip hurt off and on, but not nearly as bad as it had. Mike's knee was hurting him, making it really hard to run for any length of time. He attempted Little Rock last year and was unable to finish due to his muscles all locking up on him. He was bound and determined to get that giant medal this year. I told him I would stay with him and we would both finish. Because I'll tell you something, when you're alone and things start hurting, marathon running gets at least fifty percent harder mentally.

Mike and I met another gentleman whose name I didn't get. He was seventy-two years old and running his 16th full marathon. Read that one more time. 72 years old. 16th full marathon. Extraordinary, right? I told him I wanted to be like him when I grow up. He was a cool guy, said Little Rock Parks and Recreation sponsors his running group and they run different parks each weekend. I feel like this dude was special and probably has a fun little tribe. He kept losing his stuff. Lost his phone. Mike somehow managed to bend over, pick it up, and stand upright again. Props to that. Mike gave the man his phone back, and he proceeded to tell us how he'd lost his water bottle full of pickle juice. For those that don't know, it helps with muscle cramps. Mike then gave him his last little bottle of pickle juice. We still had like ten miles to go...

Around mile 20-21, we met BJ. Now, BJ had passed us a while back and was running pretty solid, but he hit that wall that most first-timers hit where another 10k feels freaking impossible. Mike, again, asked "are you okay?" BJ shook his head.

We found out that the decision to do the marathon was a spur of the moment thing for BJ. Now, you might say what kind of fool just decides to do a marathon without training? Well, BJ had made a joke about it in front of the wrong little ears, and there we were. He said his son looked up at him and said "I think you can do it, daddy," and that was all he wrote. BJ was a man who ran three miles a day on a treadmill before work and was now doing a full marathon. What the what?!?! 

Just for the record, he's living proof that it can be done, but it's not gonna be easy.

We rounded the corner after the giant uphill at mile 25, with less than a mile to go and a spectator yelling "make those boys move, Allison!" Sorry, that was cute. I giggled a little. I looked back at them and told them both it was all downhill from there. Beautiful thing, that downhill, because god knows there was plenty going up on that course.

We got closer to the finish and this little human comes running out "Daddy! Daddy!" It was BJ's son. Mike told the kid to come run with us, to get on the course. I joked that he could have Daddy's big, sparkly medal.

The kid grabbed his father's hand and we all started running. Fast. Too fast. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Okay, slow down, y'all. BJ's legs went straight and he came to a dead stop. We weren't even a tenth of a mile from the finish. Mike and I both said, "keep moving! Keep moving." If BJ had stopped then, he might not have crossed the finish line. I grabbed his hand and off we went again. 


Mike got his huge medal to hang next to his wife's 2019 medal. 

I got my medal and another #finishingmove (that's a whole story. Adrenaline got the best of me.) 

BJ's son was right. His daddy could do it and the kiddo got to be there for the hardest part of it. 

We all hugged, and I think we all got a little choked up. I met BJ's goofy friends and one of them hugged me and thanked me for sticking with him. I also met his wife and son. 

At the end of the day, we were three strangers selflessly helping each other do something big and all for different reasons. None of this killed us and it definitely made us stronger. For me, it helped my soul (not sole.) My give-up was strong that day and those dudes totally pulled me out of my head. If they needed my help or not, I needed theirs, and that was completely okay. When asked what the most rewarding thing about being part of the running community is, I think the story of my 2020 Little Rock marathon sums it up perfectly. 

Friday, February 28, 2020

The Warrior

I feel like this is one of those blogs that needs something more than words and pictures. I mean, some random fat chick talking about her food/body struggles every week can get pretty boring. So I think I need to jazz things up with a theme, like a weekly mind/body positive theme thing. I think I like that. I'm a pretty creative person. This could get fun.

This week, I wanna celebrate our INNER WARRIOR. Yes, all of us have one. It's that thing inside us that makes us get out of bed when it's gross outside, the thing that gets us going when the going gets tough. Your inner warrior is the badass inside you that makes you keep pushing when all you wanna do is give up.

Truth? Marathon training isn't all fun and games. Don't get me wrong, it can be loads of fun under the right circumstances (and minus total burn-out) This round has been the absolute most challenging--mentally and physically--thing I've done recently. Yes, including training for and completing the half Ironman in Augusta last year. The burn-out has gotten super intense. Things hurt that weren't supposed to hurt. Even the short runs became a challenge. I've cried. I've gotten pissed off. I considered dropping down to the half because things just weren't coming together the way I needed them to. I even completely pulled away from social media. I stopped sharing my workouts to Strava because I wasn't proud of anything I was doing. Which is really stupid if you think about it. The sheer will to keep going is enough to be proud of, but I think you get the point. It's been a freakin' struggle.



With the Little Rock Marathon coming up this weekend, the song of the week HAS to be 80s, and I'm gonna be a whole lot extra and pick "The Warrior." If you've ever heard/seen me cross a finish line, you would understand this. Beyond that, I think it takes tapping into that warrior spirit to conquer these huge goals and finish things that are hard. A warrior heart can conquer an antagonistic brain every time!

Since the big race is fast approaching and I didn't stumble upon this IF thing until it was too late, I've decided not to fast Saturday or Sunday. I'm doing the Totally Awesome challenge again this year (the 5k Saturday and the Marathon Sunday.) Because who goes to Little Rock and doesn't race both days? Pft.

I also decided to start reporting the changes in my body measurements here as well, because isn't that what we all really wanna see? Does IF work? How well does it work? And can I maintain my present level of insanity with it?

After this past weekend, I've come to the conclusion it is entirely possible to do pretty strenuous activities fasted, but I feel like adding in the BCAAs was important. Fatigue wasn't nearly as bad Sunday as it was Saturday, which is kinda backwards if you think about it. After 10 miles in the woods, my legs should've been boat anchors, but they weren't. When I get back from Little Rock, I plan to play around with some things as far as fueling goes. One thing for sure, I'm going to keep using the BCAAs during my workouts.

WEEK ONE STATISTICS:
  • Weight: -2lb
  • BMI: -.10
  • Hips: No previous measurement
  • Waist: No previous measurement
  • Bust: No previous measurement

DAY FIVE - Sunday 2/23/20:

I didn't take any pictures today, so there's really nothing fun to share here. Unless you guys want to see a screenshot from Training Peaks... Yeah, I know. No one wants to see that.

This morning has been different than the previous mornings. I wasn't starving when I got out of bed. It wasn't like I ate a ton the night before. I threw a couple of Morningstar Spicy Black Bean burgers in the air fryer for me and the hubby for dinner. I think I ate a handful of White Cheddar Cheetos with it, but that was it. I honestly don't think I heard the first growl until around 8:30 (and I woke up around 4AM. Don't ask. It's stupid to be awake that early when you don't have to be.)

Nothing much to report, other than all my workouts were done fasted. I knew I would be close to home for my run, and in my garage for the rest. That felt safe. I didn't start feeling depleted until the end of the TABATA ride (which significantly kicks my ass on a good day.)

Today's workout:  (all fasted with 1.5 servings of BodyTech Ultimate BCAA)
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 3 Mile Run
  • 35 Minute TABATA Ride

DAY SIX - Monday 2/24/20:

My body is definitely getting used to this madness. I haven't been starving in the mornings, and those early evenings spent watching TV with my husband doesn't include snacking anymore, which I'm not missing too badly today. Though, that bag of white cheddar Cheetos is calling my name. Seriously, if you haven't tried those things, you're missing out. I can't even eat the orange ones anymore.

Today's workout:
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 20 Minute Stair Stepper Intervals

DAY SEVEN - Tuesday 2/25/20:


So this is totally cool. It's been exactly one week since I started this fasting experiment. It all began on a taco Tuesday. And what is today? Oh, yeah! #tacosarelife

Morning seem to be getting a lot easier. At least today they are. My body doesn't seem to be demanding food as soon as my eyes open. So that's a win. Pretty proud of my food choices during the day.

My husband made the BEST shrimp tacos and mango salsa for dinner. It was delicious and I felt completely satisfied... until like an hour later. It took a lot of will power to resist the urge to munch. If only I'd had that willpower when it came to working out today...

Today's workout:
  • I'm a total slacker. Don't judge me.

DAY EIGHT - Wednesday 2/26/20:

I think work from home days are especially hard because all the things I want to eat are right outside the office door, and I know they're there. Like those stupid White Cheddar Cheetos. Seriously, never ever ever buy them. Once you start, you can't stop.

We're stocking up on the carbs and protein in preparation for race weekend. Hubby cooked steak and baked potatoes tonight. It was incredibly filling. I had a handful of vanilla cupcake goldfish right before the fasting window started again. What? I wanted something sweet. #dontjudgeme

Today's workout: 

DAY NINE - Thursday 2/27/20:

Oh. My. God. I'm sooooo hungry. This morning was bad again. I counted down minutes and the clock wasn't going anywhere. My stomach rumbled sooooooooo loudly. Ugh.

I got so mentally invested in my work project that didn't eat until around 10:20. Obviously, my tummy quieted down, but I couldn't tell you when. Probably when I stopped thinking about it. That's the trick, you know?

Maybe I'm losing my mind, but I feel like I'm already seeing changes in my body composition. Keep in mind, I've been doing a lot of HIIT, TABATA, and core work since January 1, but I still feel like fasting is making a positive impact on my weight.

Today's workout: 
  • Rest

DAY TEN - Friday 2/28/20:

So far, so good. Still fasting. I did a little carb loading last night with pizza from Pyros. It was fabulous. Woke up still feeling pretty good. I'm going to break the fast tonight so I can properly fuel for Saturday and Sunday, but I plan on going back to this diet on Monday! I really like how I feel and the results I'm seeing.

I wanted to get this up before hitting the road to head to Little Rock. Kinda like having all my work wrapped up before heading on vacation. I don't like to leaving things unfinished. If all goes well, I'll have a fun story to tell about my 4th marathon! Wish me luck!

Sunday, February 23, 2020

Long Time, No See...

Wow, it's been a hot minute, hasn't it? Last time I talked to you all, I was going into training for my second full marathon. A lot has happened since then. Not only did I finish that bad boy, I finished a third and began training for my fourth. #oneanddonemyass #theytoldmeso

I also became a triathlete and finished my first half Ironman. (Augusta 70.3 is a story for another day.) Crazy stuff though, right? It's been a wild, fabulously torturous adventure. So much fun, in fact, that I've completely burned myself out. Yeah... totally. I had planned on doing my first 50k after Little Rock this year, but I decided against it because my heart just isn't in. I was training hard and everything was going great, then I got a lower respiratory infection that put me out for two weeks and messed up my long runs. I got discouraged and sorta gave up (still trained, but meh.) I'll pay for it March 1st. But that's not why we're here.

During all that hardcore endurance training, I STAYED hungry. Like all the time. See food. Eat food. And because of the burn-out and the fact I was still doing something, I gave myself license to eat what the hell I wanted to. This is a trap a lot of people fall into. You ran fifteen miles, eat an effing cupcake.

Can I just say Frost Bake Shop makes the best cupcakes in the 901. Don't believe me? Try them.

I digress. The point was I completely tanked my weight loss. Well, maybe not completely. I did manage to stay under two hundred pounds, but I'm getting to a place I don't like and it's ruining my run fun.

BodyFast App
As a subscriber to like every major fitness/running/healthy food blog/app/whatever, I get daily emails with catchy headlines about eat this and don't eat that, or do this workouts to boost your (insert whatever goal.) One came through a few weeks ago about intermittent fasting. It totally caught my eye, so I read it.

My brain very literally said to me, "but wait, Allison, you do all that endurancey crap. How can you fast?" So again, I took to Google. What I found was there are people in this wild universe who do IF and endurance running. A lot of super fit, super lean, long time endurance athletes whose bodies are consistently trained to do all this stuff. They weren't 40+ plus women with an excessive BMI and mad hankering for all the sweet things. Totally not applicable to me.

I'm piece-milling all the things I've found from the different sites and what I know about running and fueling and dieting, or at the very least what I think I know. I'm not certified in anything related to this blog. I'm an IT nerd. I sit at a desk all day and stare at screens. Though, in my defense, I have a standing desk and a balance ball chair.

So... consider this a science experiment, a diary of trial and error, with me being a willing guinea pig. I plan to share what has worked as far as fueling and what hasn't, all the emotions and how I feel physically during this madness and of course any positive and/or negative changes. Also, you guys are going to help me stay accountable. I plan to be very real with y'all, so that means I have to be very real with myself, and y'all know how hard that mess can be. I hope everyone finds this content helpful... or at the very least, entertaining to read.


THE PLAN:

"The concept is fairly simple: the 16:8 diet is where you eat for about eight hours of the day and then ‘fast’ for the rest of the day." source: Women's Health Magazine

"Suggested benefits of the 16:8 plan include weight loss and fat loss, as well as the prevention of type 2 diabetes and other obesity-associated conditions." source: Medical News Today

According to Gweneth Paltrow's Netflix show, Goop Lab, fasting also helps slow biological aging as well as increasing energy. Just Google it. The internet has a wealth of information about 16:8 Fasting.

Since I have a problem restricting what I eat, I'm not changing my diet. As it stands now, I typically avoid sugary things at least 6 days a week. I use Monk Fruit to sweeten my coffee. I've been breaking my fast with carbs and protein. One of my go-tos is Ezekiel Bread toast and nut butter. I'm eyeing a jar of Pistachio Butter I really wanna try. Friday is typically eat whatever day because Saturday (and likely Sunday) will always consist of a long/longish run. I think I mostly snack and eat smart, so we're going to try fasting and exercise before going too crazy.


DAY ONE - Wednesday 2/19/20:


My husband cooked this!!!
What, you didn't think you'd get through this without some food pics, did you? To the right is the last meal before starting the fast. My husband made homemade tomatillo salsa, pork carnitas tacos, and Mexican street corn. He keeps one-upping his taco Tuesdays. I'm not complaining. It was delicious and left me completely satisfied.

The morning after making this insane decision wasn't horrible. I was as hungry as I expected to be but my inner cheerleader was all "go team go! You can do it!" I was in a happy place with this decision despite my loudly growling stomach. Truth? The growling has been my body's way of saying good morning since I started doing all the physical activity back in 2015. Nothing new or shocking here.

The growling came in waves. I drank water and sugar/creamer free (zero calorie) coffee all morning and avoided people just in case my hangry came out. I broke the fast with Ezekiel Bread toast and peanut butter. Had a salad for lunch about an hour later. I never felt like I was completely satisfied though.

I might have cried a little when my Apple Watch notified me that my eating window was coming to an end.We all have things that move us to tears. Mine happens to be food and heart-jerking dramas with great character arcs... don't judge me. The hungrier I am, the more I fall for broken, fictional bad boys.

Today's workout: 
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 20 Min Stair Climber Intervals
  • 4 Mile Run (BCAA)

DAY TWO - Thursday 2/20/20:

Today was a whole different ball game. I was hungry when I woke up. My stomach was growling and didn't stop growling until I put something in it. I think she's getting an attitude. Gonna have to knock her down a peg or two.

I didn't get to break my fast with peanut butter toast today, because I've been in and out of meetings, but I still grabbed something with Protein. I read somewhere that your body will cannibalize the muscles without protein or something. So I figured this was a good choice... considering my boss fed us pizza today.

I pretty much stayed hungry and a little cranky all day. My husband made homemade Shrimp Scampi and garlic bread for dinner. I was a decent sized plate, and I was hungry thirty minutes after eating. I stayed hungry all night, even started feeling pretty bad. My stomach hated me. Since I started endurance training, whenever I get super hungry, I start feeling nauseous. That hasn't happened in a while, but it happened today. Ugh. Why am I doing this?

Today's workout: 
  • DailyBurn 365
  • 20 Min Stair Climber Intervals
  • 45 minute Cycle TABATA

DAY THREE - Friday 2/21/20:


I can't lie. Today, I was counting down the minutes until I could eat again. It was really hard not to cave today. I had one of those "how bad can one fun-sized Snicker ruin my fast?" You'd be proud. I didn't eat one. In fact, when it came time for my fasting window to end, I was good and had the little snack you see to your right. Colby Jack cheese cubes, coconut walnuts, and honeycrisp apples. Sounds like a ton of food, but it wasn't. Each side of the container is only a half a cup, and it was completely satisfying. Thank gawds, because on my way to lunch I was rear-ended and had to wait another hour and a half or so to even eat a real meal.

I carb loaded and proteined up for my weekend. My husband was craving Central BBQ, and to be honest, as soon as he mentioned it, I started craving it too. I didn't pig out, but was satisfied when my eating window close.

Today's workout: 
  • Rest Day


DAY FOUR - Saturday 2/22/20:

This morning, the growling didn't seem so bad. I wasn't horribly hungry upon waking. I didn't have the guts to start exercising fasted because I planned on going to the woods. Alone. That seemed dangerous to me. I did do my DailyBurn 365 fasted, and it was challenging, but that day's trainer has always been a tough one.


I had two slices of Ezekiel Bread toast and peanut butter (versus the one I typically have) and headed out to Herb Parsons Lake for a run in the woods. These lone adventures have been good for my head, and I think my self confidence. These particular trails are one of the more challenging for me. The pine cones make the floor slick, and with all the rain we've had, the trails were a mess. I focused more on not breaking my neck than trying to go fast, and eventually I made it out of the woods alive. It was a really great morning.


Today's workout: 
  • DailyBurn 365
    (BCAA post workout)
  • 10 Mile Trail Run
    (Peanut Butter Toast pre-run. Hammer Heed during workout. Chocolate Milk post workout)